Depressed · Mental Health

Temporary Home

Temporary Home 

Little boy, six years old
A little too used to being alone
Another new mom and dad
Another school, another house that will never be home
When people ask him how he likes this place
He looks up and says with a smile upon his face.

This is my temporary home, It’s not where I belong
Windows and rooms that I’m passing through
This is just a stop on the way to where I’m going
I’m not afraid because I know
This is my temporary home.

Young mom, on her own
She needs a little help, got nowhere to go
She’s looking for a job, looking for a way out
‘Cause a halfway house will never be a home
At night she whispers to her baby girl
“Someday we’ll find our place here in this world”

This is our temporary home, It’s not where we belong
Windows and rooms that we’re passing through
This is just a stop on the way to where we’re going
I’m not afraid because I know
This is our temporary home

Old man, hospital bed
The room is filled with people he loves
And he whispers
“Don’t cry for me, I’ll see you all someday”
He looks up and says
” I can see God’s face”

this is my temporary home, it’s not where I belong
Windows and rooms that I’m passing through
This was just a stop on the way to where I’m going
I’m not afraid because I know
This was my temporary home.

This is our temporary home.

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Causes · Depressed · Family Share · love · Lyrics · Mental Health · photography · Wordless

{ Just Keep Breathing }

The 1st Time I heard this song I was facing a tough battle in my life, a battle I don’t wish upon my worst enemy. As I listened to this song, I cried, for many nights. I was in such bad shape all I wanted to do is disappear. I wanted to scream for help, but I couldn’t. It was a choice I didn’t have. I would say ” Oh GOD how I need you now… Don’t you see me? can’t you feel the pain I’m going through? Why is this happening to me? To my marriage? I just couldn’t understand. At one point I was so tired of holding on and I wanted to give up. That’s when I felt the hands of God holding me up. Like he has done many times. Never letting me go. My tears still drip sore but I’m feeling better… So Today I wanted to share this song with you guys hope you like it… Let me know what you think 🙂 

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“Need You Now (How Many Times)”

Well, everybody’s got a story to tell
And everybody’s got a wound to be healed
I want to believe there’s beauty here
‘Cause oh, I get so tired of holding on
I can’t let go, I can’t move on
I want to believe there’s meaning here

How many times have you heard me cry out
“God please take this”?
How many times have you given me the strength to
Just keep breathing?
Oh, I need you
God, I need you now.

Standing on a road I didn’t plan
Wondering how I got to where I am
I’m trying to hear that still small voice
I’m trying to hear above the noise

How many times have you heard me cry out
“God please take this”?
How many times have you given me the strength to
Just keep breathing?
Oh, I need you
God, I need you now.

Though I walk,
Though I walk through the shadows
And I, I am so afraid
Please stay, please stay right beside me
With every single step, I take

How many times have you heard me cry out?
And how many times have you given me strength?

How many times have you heard me cry out
“God please take this”?
How many times have you given me the strength to
Just keep breathing?
Oh, I need you
God, I need you now.

I need you now
Oh, I need you
God, I need you now.
I need you now
I need you now

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Passion {Wordless}

The winter in New England is horrible, we are getting hit very bad with snowstorms one after the other there is nowhere to put more snow… 

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Cold weather there’s nothing better than Hot Chocolate with chocolate chip marshmallow yummy

To end this ” Why Not ” a reminder what “SUMMER” looks like LOL I sure do need a reminder since we are getting another storm this weekend 😦

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{ Wordless } Wednesday #Blogger

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 He will be 17 on Friday, got his first Car, and is ready to drive and MOM is so scared oh boy. This is not what I had in mind when I started having kids LOL… Love my boys to death ❤ 🙂 

20140612_201354This is his car gift from Grandma 🙂 

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The most precious gift in my life are My children and my husband Loving them is all I’ve got 🙂
I know that no matter what tomorrow brings I will always be able to have a smile and be thankful for all I had, have, and will have because God gave it to me. 

I’m very thankful for my family!

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This is My #fight

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1 year and 6 months

Wow it seems like forever that I’ve been out of work and at home suffering, and it’s only been one year and 6 months.
The pain and agony of having a #clot , dealing with it, #surviving it, and moving on beyond it, is not just for anyone.
I’ll tell you something when I first found out I had a DVT (deep venous thrombosis) I was in such a deep pain and when I saw doctors and they told me it would only take about 6 months for me to heal from it I thought ” Hey not too bad. “

Was I wrong and I guess so was all the doctors I saw, because its ben past the 6 months and I’m still in a lot of pain.
Not only on my right let (that’s where I had the DVT) but also chest pain and shortness of breath due to the pulmonary embolism that I also had at the same time. The fact my life depends on taking pills (Coumadin) for Life sucks. The reason I can’t eat a salad. 😦
The reason today if I walk more than 5 minutes I have to stop and rest because I’m in too much pain. My Leg hurts so much it’s unbelievable. I get angry, I cry, I feel depressed. It’s a horrible feeling. I was so scared of eating anything that was rich in vitamin K I stayed away from it all. Till the day I read a person post that she eats a bowl of greens every day and she had the medicine adjust to that and not the other way around.

Meaning not herself adjusting to the meds.

I thought that was so interesting, I thought to myself should I try to do that? Maybe I can add a bow of salad to my daily diet and see
how that goes for a week or two and maybe I’ll even lose some weight since I have to shred some pounds anyways.
Well, I guess not everything works for everyone and some people have their illness a little more elevated than others.

I had 2 (two) bowls of salads and my normal INR count is to be between 2-3 it dropped to a VERY dangerous 1.0 and I got put on
Lovenox which I had to inject myself with a needle on my belly 2x a day plus my coumadin dose when from 10mg to 20mg and the doctor was not happy with me LOL. It took her effort plus mine of injection and medication for 3 weeks straight to get my levels up again to a 2.0 and I was in a danger zone of developing a new clot.

I have a blood disorder called Factor II (20210) that causes me to have a higher risk than a normal person to develop a clot so it’s
very important for my levels to always be between 2-3. Plus being obese and sedentary doesn’t help. 😦

Now what is a person to do? you can’t eat a bowl of salad? or any greens. Can’t exercise due to pain, but need to lose weight?
I’m lost out of ideas… I tried not eating, that doesn’t work :-/
I need to come out with a plan. I don’t know what to do. If you have any idea and care to share, please do. Thanks 🙂

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For some of you that don’t know I’m 35 years old, had 3 children and never had any problem with my pregnancies but I had a clot on my right leg back in March of 2013 and a pulmonary embolism.
I was also diagnosed at the same time with a blood disorder called Factor II. My mother is also a carrier of factor II and my father had the same problem, I only found out after I got the clot (my father has been deceased for 23 years) as I looked a little deeper into our family history, I found out my older stepsister also has the same. I was told by my doctor to have my kids checked even though they are boys for precaution, the highest risks are for women due to pregnancy, but males can have some severe problems as well like my father did. I did have my boys checked and they are all positive.  Besides that, I have what they want to call Fibromyalgia, Achalasia and 2 small meningioma in my brains that causes severe Migraines that drives me crazy. Can you relate in anyway? or have any advice? Please comment. 🙂 Thanks, and God Bless!!!